It was another romantic evening in Bangalore as the Sun was taking a dive into the fading sky. Oh what an evening it was ! The faint drizzle had created an atmosphere of utter romance and the smell of rain and mud filled one with inner joy.
It was half past six as Ashmit and Rishika were probably meeting for one last time. The poor 18 year old guy didn't know what he was going to face in the upcoming 30 minutes. 2 years back, in the same spot with a letter in his right hand, a fragrant red rose in his left and a heart filled with utter passion and zero lust he had told her the words "I love you Rishika. Until the sun stops adorning the morning sky, the moon stops gleaming on the dark night sky and until February has 30 days, my love for you will never cease". Impressed by his words and his tenderness, she had told yes back then. But things had drifted apart between them. Rather, both were going along in the same direction. She was going away from him into the wild where nothing good came up and he like an innocent fawn went along the path traced by her searching for all those little things that had bonded them. Yes, it was their 2nd anniversary. November 14th it was and those memories ran past him.
She came, as usual twenty minutes late. Dressed in a black one piece, she came. He by then had ordered a decent evening meal. With a wry smile, she said "Hi Ashmu.." and continued Whatsapping her "best friend". Over the next few minutes, silence filled the posh Taj West End located on the sprawling Race Course road of Bangalore. Extremely hurt, he asked whether she could stop texting for a while and spend the evening with him instead. Not caring for his feelings and with zero emotions in her eye, she looked up at him and told him that she wanted to tell him something. He nodded as two pizzas, two slices of chocolate cake and a bottle of country made champagne arrived.
Taking a sip of the champagne from the glass she muttered "Ashmu, you are great guy but we can no longer be together. I no longer see you that way and I have another boy friend. Thanks for all times and I am sorry but this cannot happen." The world crashed around him as tiny drops of tears fell from his previously happy eyes. His throat choked as he tried to speak. Taking the last sip of the champagne and leaving the food untouched, she left with a brutal smile on her lips. He saw her walk away from his life, as he fell deep into the well of sadness. Placing 14 crisp 500 rupee notes on the bill, he left as all his emotions, feelings and thoughts had fallen into the deepest abyss.
It was half past ten on a chilly night as he reached his PG on his Activa. He slowly trudged along the steps. He unlocked his house and directly reached for his fridge. He gulped down two bottles of Fosters and drank Scottish whiskey until the night no longer made sense to him. He passed out on the couch with his shirt half unbuttoned and shoes still on.
He was in deep slumber until he was woken up by the violent knocking of the door by his maid. Pissed off, she roughed him up for not opening the door fast enough. Annoyed by the alcohol stench and the dirty glasses she mumbled a few unmentionables to herself.
Smelly, unkempt and heart broken, he didn't know what to do. His heart bled, his senses not functioning properly and his mind filled with her thoughts, he wanted closure. At a corner of his heart, he knew it wasn't happening. He knew he would never move on. He had the uncontrollable urge to let all his feelings out. With a pen and paper in his hand, he decided to write one last letter to her.
"Dearest Rishu,
Maybe you are right. Everything between us is over. Yes, both of us were in love. But we were in love with the same person. You loved yourself too much to care about my feelings and i did that too. I loved you more than you loved yourself. All along in the last few weeks, I knew we had problems. But, i never thought it would end. And above all I never knew a third person was causing them. Since its all over, let me just tell you why I actually fell for you.
Lets go back to 2012, when i asked you to be mine. With the most cutest smile on your face, you said yes. You still had the same smile yesterday, but the meaning behind it completely different. Both of them killed me, in different ways ! We came a long way from that day, we had our fights, our cuddles, our hugs in the pouring rain and also the selfless sharing of pain ! What was it that i didn't give you sweetheart ? I gave you my life, i took care of you like my right eye and i even gave up the football finals to be with you when you were down with flu. i took you the nicest places, bought you your favorite jewelry and gave you the chocolates you love the most. Above all, i took the oath of honesty, the oath of love - to never let go of you in the toughest situations and love you irrespective of who you were and never to make you cry. Yes, I still love you and I can never and will never find another you.
Exactly two weeks back, during our last walk, you asked me a question "What is it that you see in me ? " If you do remember, I told you that words cannot explain the reason. Sadly, I am putting it on paper for you. When I see your eyes, I see the world's happiness in it. I see mother nature's glory in it. When I see your lips, I see mother nature's adorable naughtiness in it. When I see your smile, I fall into a world of happiness with musicians from paradise playing and some of the most loveliest apsaras dancing while the most beautiful of them is standing in front of me. When I hear you talk, it feels like a thousand pearls fall on brilliant marble ! When I first saw you I was like "Oh my god that girl ! Thank you god for sending this princess down here to mesmerize me ! " When I saw you walk, your gait showed mother nature's genius in sculpting. Your attitude, your cute naughtiness, your rare stupidity, your red face when you were angry, your perfection, your all took me on a tour of the heavens. There you go. You have your answer.
During all times we spent, I never even thought in my wildest dreams that it was going to end like this. One word from your mouth, i would have tried solving the issues. But you preferred silence ! I have changed so much for you, one word from you and i would have changed more ! Lastly, the things i have given you, the love I showered you with, the affection and tenderness i gave you, the way i bore you in your toughest times, your new guy can never do any of these. You and me are meant to be together. Bye.
with infinite amount of love,
Ashmit "
He emptied his heart on this piece of paper. Drenched with tears, the paper was put into a envelope and the address of the house where she lived with her sister was written. He took his two wheeler and went to the nearest post office and dropped it off there. Empty inside and immersed in her thoughts, he carelessly drove his vehicle on the wide main road of Sadashivnagar. A lorry driven by a drunken driver came on the wrong side and rear ended his two wheeler. His head hit the road divider and he was killed on the spot due to severe head injuries.
She came to his house as she heard the news. She saw his smashed head and bloodied bandages. She wept and wept. At the same time, a post man who was ignorant of all the happenings dropped the letter with a merry song in his mouth. Finally, fate had its say.
Life is too short to ignore the people who love you. Instead of running behind a person who doesn't care for you as much or a person who doesn't know what true love is, shower double the love on the person who worships your very existence. Physical beauty fades over the passage of time, but true love, care and affection will stay on even as decades and perhaps even centuries pass by !
______ Humanity is my religion, Indian my identity.
Exactly two weeks back, during our last walk, you asked me a question "What is it that you see in me ? " If you do remember, I told you that words cannot explain the reason. Sadly, I am putting it on paper for you. When I see your eyes, I see the world's happiness in it. I see mother nature's glory in it. When I see your lips, I see mother nature's adorable naughtiness in it. When I see your smile, I fall into a world of happiness with musicians from paradise playing and some of the most loveliest apsaras dancing while the most beautiful of them is standing in front of me. When I hear you talk, it feels like a thousand pearls fall on brilliant marble ! When I first saw you I was like "Oh my god that girl ! Thank you god for sending this princess down here to mesmerize me ! " When I saw you walk, your gait showed mother nature's genius in sculpting. Your attitude, your cute naughtiness, your rare stupidity, your red face when you were angry, your perfection, your all took me on a tour of the heavens. There you go. You have your answer.
During all times we spent, I never even thought in my wildest dreams that it was going to end like this. One word from your mouth, i would have tried solving the issues. But you preferred silence ! I have changed so much for you, one word from you and i would have changed more ! Lastly, the things i have given you, the love I showered you with, the affection and tenderness i gave you, the way i bore you in your toughest times, your new guy can never do any of these. You and me are meant to be together. Bye.
with infinite amount of love,
Ashmit "
He emptied his heart on this piece of paper. Drenched with tears, the paper was put into a envelope and the address of the house where she lived with her sister was written. He took his two wheeler and went to the nearest post office and dropped it off there. Empty inside and immersed in her thoughts, he carelessly drove his vehicle on the wide main road of Sadashivnagar. A lorry driven by a drunken driver came on the wrong side and rear ended his two wheeler. His head hit the road divider and he was killed on the spot due to severe head injuries.
She came to his house as she heard the news. She saw his smashed head and bloodied bandages. She wept and wept. At the same time, a post man who was ignorant of all the happenings dropped the letter with a merry song in his mouth. Finally, fate had its say.
Life is too short to ignore the people who love you. Instead of running behind a person who doesn't care for you as much or a person who doesn't know what true love is, shower double the love on the person who worships your very existence. Physical beauty fades over the passage of time, but true love, care and affection will stay on even as decades and perhaps even centuries pass by !
______ Humanity is my religion, Indian my identity.
Beautiful :')
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